A few thoughts, verses, passages... stuff on my heart ... things God is teaching me and speaking to me about recently . . .
Come boldly to the throne of Christ Jesus, where grace abounds!!
"Our responsibility is to let people see God through us."
Mark 11:22-24 "Have faith in God," Jesus answered. "I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. Therefore, I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."
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I cannot forsee/predict the exact day that I'll travel to Guatemala to pick up Connor. But I do know that God knows all about that day, he's planned it all in advance for me, and I know it'll be a much more amazing day because God is behind it all planning & perfecting every detail of that day. As much as I would love to have my baby home, I know if I were to have been given the choice, it would've been longggg ago... months ago... maybe very soon after seeing his pictures of when he was born. But this time has been and is about God testing my faith, perseverance, will... I always go back to this: I KNOW HE WILL NOT GIVE ME MORE THAN I CAN BEAR!!
The honest truth is that a lot of times, it is difficult to face people and look them in the eye and say "I just do not know when he'll come home." The honest truth is that it brings me straight to some massive tears -- Connor not being here and then going to work every day not knowing who will be the next person to throw out that infamous question about the "when?" and "why?" To understand everything in life would mean you possess all knowledge and have the ability to walk through life without a thought, knowing what's ahead, dodging things you would just love to avoid (hurts, pain, sorrow, grief, death) and heading for things that bring smiley faces, laughs, ease. But life isn't like that. Sometimes we have to walk through the pain, tears or hurts to get to the joy, peace, comfort. There's a song (can't remember who sings it or the name of it) that part of it goes, "I will walk through the valley if You want me to." We'll not always be on the top of the mountain, viewing all the wonderful things there are to see from way up there, the fresh air, the soft clouds. Darn those times in our lives when we go through the valleys (hurts, tears, struggles).. but we learn all God desires to teach us & where He molds us -- in that valley, so we can soak it all in from the Almighty, then move upward with boldness, courage, confidence, assurance.. toward the goal.. the peak... yeah, we'll sometimes take a few steps back, but only so that we can relearn something that may have slipped our mind.
